On my mind 

“Councils”by Marge Piercy

We must sit down

and reason together.

We must sit down.

Men standing want to hold forth.

They rain down upon faces lifted.
We must sit down on the floor

on the earth

on stones and mats and blankets.

There must be no front to the speaking

no platform, no rostrum,

no stage or table.

We will not crane

to see who is speaking.
Perhaps we should sit in the dark.

In the dark we could utter our feelings.

In the dark we could propose

and describe and suggest.
In the dark we could not see who speaks

and only the words

would say what they say.
Thus saying what we feel and what we want,

what we fear for ourselves and each other

into the dark, perhaps we could begin

to begin to listen.
Perhaps we should talk in groups

small enough for everyone to speak.
Perhaps we should start by speaking softly.

The women must learn to dare to speak.
The men must bother to listen.
The women must learn to say, I think this is so.
The men must learn to stop dancing solos on

the ceiling.

After each speaks, she or he

will repeat a ritual phrase:
It is not I who speaks but the wind.

Wind blows through me.

Long after me, is the wind.

“I am from…”

Where I am from….now that is a complex and simple question. I am from Michigan. I am from Metro-Detroit. From a lawyer and an architect who stopped practicing to raise me. I am from her. From her sacrifices.

I am from wealth that was fought for and the benefit of stepping onto the bottom stair of an escalator of public policies that brought families like mine from working class to middle class to upper class. Yes upper class.

I am not from Harlem. I live in Harlem. I live and love and have been broken and picked myself back up in Harlem. In this city. I am not from here. I can never claim that. I love here. I’ve loved and love here. I am not from here.

I am from Metro-Detroit. Not just Detroit because to leave out the metro obscures the reality that yes my family’s history and mine is bound up with the city’s and that means it’s bound up in the ways it’s developed as a metropolitan area. How it’s been divided into urban v suburban and suburban areas became urban as soon as they became black.

My roots don’t run deep in the geographic place I’m from. My family’s history does. 

The way I move and breathe and seek to live in this world is rooted in constant learning that started at Mercy high and continued at (university of) Michigan. In workshops with men I was taught to fear and instead I created with. Laughed with. Cried for. My roots are communities I happened upon and communities I created.

I can never claim to be from Harlem. To be from the city. To claim being from means an early shaping by that place and those people. Shaping that unfolds and is lost and unearthed as early memories are.

Two and a half years. I’ve been shaped by the city. But I’m not from here. I’m from Michigan.

Ive been sitting on this piece for a while. About 6 months — as it states I’ve been in the city only 2.5 years when I just passed my third year anniversary August 13th. I shared it aloud for the first time this weekend while on retreat with the young folks I work with (who live all over New York City and are from all over the world) as an example of an “I am from” poem. Take 10 minutes, write your own – what comes up? 

  

Midnight musings

In Time

The first time I took it slow

At times fast but reminded 

The journey would be long 

Take my time

As I was taking my time

More time

In New York City

I took time to breath

That was my intention 

And my legs my body my breathe

Climbed rocks

Balanced over cliffs

That almost froze me

I breathed

Pushed on

To the end when to my amazement

I realized I could do it again

And I did 

Another year

In New York City I grew 

And watered roots that started 

Like a tree out of rocks

On the side of the mountain

I climbed again this time

More urgently I scrambled 

Methodical yet impatient

Faster bc I knew the

Way to go as I knew how to

Go through a city

I never thought 

I’d call home

And I paused in wonder and spoke 

Of dreams I dared not have the first 

Time I climbed. 

Another year gone and the place I never thought I’d call home

I can’t imagine leaving 

As I look out at each ridge

I’d been too before but never been the same at twice

I’m reminded 

By heat and sweat and not enough water 

The harder path isn’t always 

the right path

And the journey continues 

Ever the same

Ever different 

I’ll take my time.